Yesterday Will and I were having a chat and some how we ended up having a pretty lengthy discussion on the use of the word nonchalant and if there is such a thing as just chalant and of course this led to remembering the timeless joke from 10 Things I hate About You about if you can just be whelmed or if it has to over or under.
Really this story seems to be going nowhere, but it has a point, I promise. What happened after this discussion is I have been really aware of when I actually feel over or underwhelmed and how I have been having these frequent moments of neither, just frozen.
Do other moms feel this? Working, Stay at Home, or Work at Home? I feel when Leona goes for a nap I go into this zone of having so much to do and that I want to accomplish that I stop feeling. My heart is pounding fast but my brain just says eh, and I end up just getting half of a few things done and then when she wakes up 30 minutes later I go into a zone, the frozen zone. It makes me feel not awesome, thats the truth. I don’t know what to do about it, maybe better planning? I feel like every time I have a plan it place lately it has just been crumbling. Don’t get me wrong, this post is not to complain, it is to observe and resolve and hopefully improve. We all have to start somewhere.
So really, am I alone in this odd feeling of having so much to do but not enough or when the time comes to finally have a moment to yourself, just going numb? This blog has been lacking some good reality posts lately, feels good to get this one out of my head and onto “paper”. Thanks y’all. She’s napping now. Time to tackle all of the things. (ha)
P.S. I am thuroughly loving the book “The Gifts of Imperfection” right now and that may have something do with this analysis as well. Its making me take a look at a lot of my life thoughts, emotions, and actions. Really a good one.