One thing our lives are not lacking is movement. Though I must say I should probably be moving my body a little more for my healths sake. Hopefully soon we will be able to stop moving cities all of ther time, but luckily, that does involve some excercise. Truly though, we have been through the ringer this past year. Thus, I have fallen behind on my documenting so expect a few catch up posts on Leona's milestones and some lovely flashback posts, which have already made me teary eyed just from looking through the photos for them.
Our little Leona is growing so fast. Everyone told us this would happen, but oh my, sometimes you wake up and look over at the sweet sleeping baby next you and realize you missed her growing up in just hours. They literally change by the hour sometimes, its unreal. It's completely magical. Despite all of the things that have gone amiss, I look at her and feel full and not broken. Now add in Will holding her and bam, heart melted, filled up, perfection. It's the sort of happiness you want to wrap yourself up in. It's the best part of the movie. In all honesty, it's terrifying sometimes. You never want it to go away so you spend all of your time trying to keep it and fix tiny problems, stay healthy, keep it together. By you, I obviously mean, me. So that's what I'm working on. Learning to just accept it and savor it. Not to let the rest of the fears and what ifs break this good thing down. I could give a list of a bunch of things that have gone wrong, things that are lingering abd scaring me about my body and health after such a hard pregnancy, the fact that we keep having to move, but you know what, I'm not going to. Postpartum anxiety and all of that mumbo jumbo, I'm not letting you win.
I am happy and so madly in love with this family we have created. I'm not letting go of it.
*magic moments from her first days earthside*
More recent photos to come :)